I guess I should have been excited the way most of the other girls were, but I couldn't get myself to react. I felt very still and very empty, the way the eye of a tornado must feel, moving dully along in the middle of the surrounding hullabaloo.
This has been a year for depressing books. i dont know why i am so perverse that i actually enjoy the heaviness and the sad phase that comes upon me after reading a good depressing book. this one definitely gets top marks.
i appreciate the sentiment in the above quote. that is mostly how i am. i know the right thing to say and to do but when the time gets to be excited usually i feel like i am in a bad parody. there was no real reason for this girl to be depressed. she just...was.
somewhere in the middle she describes herself as tired. i think thats worse than being sad or depressed. when you just feel so tired that you wish the world would just leave you behind. youre too tired to catch up and its all you can do to breathe.
im not going to buy this book. even though i think it will be one of my favourites for a long time. i leave it as a touchstone...like a stranger passing through...and keep the memories.
i would never want to re read this book...its silence is enough.
Ahh that last sentence says it all. A good book isn't one you have sitting in your collection all the time. A good book is there in your memory.
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